Lacroix, A Tormented Soul Awaits You
by Stacey Wright

Grey mist
surrounds my soul
help me
I’m drowning

Feel it
that’s my heart
like a fawn
before the kill
scared, oh so scared

You frighten me
with your words
your deeds
with your love

Look at me
really look at me
I’m not whole
never will be

I’m confused
my heart aches
not for love
but for release

My mind is tormented
by a thousand shadows
a million voices
and countless needs
I’m not like the others
I’m fragmented
splintered around the edge

Desire me
desire nothing
emptiness
fills this cluttered space

Start over
remake me
kill the light
break the mold

I live on pain
I make love to sorrow
I eat despair
I drink anguish

Torment me no more
my soul bleeds
but not blood
raw emotions

I want you
I don’t want you
you don’t know me
and you don’t want to

I need you Lacroix
but I can’t say it
I don’t know How
I’m not like the others

I’m different
not in body
but in spirit

Hold me
protect me
from myself
I’m dangerous

Accept me
for who and what
I really am

I’m more than
one person
I’m many

I stand
on the right
on the left
and in the middle

All roads are right
for me

Accept me
accept all of me
truly, truly

I lust for pain
sticky sweet
bloodlust

I want the demons out
you must embrace them
make them your own

I lie
not to hurt
but to protect
protection comes first
personal pleasure
comes oh so later

Can you handle me
can you handle us
are you ready
are you scared

Of course not
you are Lacroix
the great elder

Taste my darkness
taste the night
put the demons to rest
put them to bed

Hey all this is me
I accept it
can you

I like pain
pain
pain
pain

Please punish me

My fate is in
your hands
are you up 
to the challenge

I Lacroix 
accept your challenge

January '99